With the first full week of school coming to an end I’m most definitely already feeling overwhelmed with all kinds of emotion. My baby of four children was enrolled and entered into school last week and once again finding myself feeling an emptiness that is hard to fill. I’m trying very hard to feel the positive thoughts with all the hustle and bustle in my life again. From sun up to sun down the breakfast is made, book and lunch bag is packed, she is dressed, groomed and ready to catch the bus. For the 8 hours she is gone I’m going to have to figure out what my next milestone will be now that she is enjoying hers. When she finally does get home there is homework, dinner, meetings, extra activities, dinner, bath time, story time, and bed time. Yes, this was always my high yet this time I feel like I’m fighting this overwhelming loss of something in my life again as I was blessed to be able to share all five of these years home with this child.
Now it is time for me to look ahead into another adventure as my baby girl moves forward in her life. It did help a bit to take a day for me to get a mini makeover and do my shopping with a clear head. Now that the anxiety of letting her enter into the big world without a whole lot of stress and anxiety from her as I watch her build confidence it makes it all that much easier for me to start concentrating on a plan to rediscover myself and what I will do to fill this void.
My apologies to any and all of my followers who just started reading my blog before I got caught up with getting my baby girl off to school last week. When I realized that precious time slips away so fast I knew that I needed to take advantage of those last days home with her before she went off to kindergarten this past week. Now that she has moved onto a new milestone in her life It is time for mommy to take advantage of this opportunity to explore and capture the attention and hearts of my readers.
First let me start by saying that this ravishing photo I have shared was taken by my brother, Matt down in Georgia and how much it reminds me of how much I love my adventurous life. There is no words to tell you how much I loved and enjoyed my couple of weeks down south with my brother and his family. If it wasn’t for My Sister, Tammy so graciously taking me along on her trip to Georgia I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to enjoy the adventure, beauty, and history of Georgia.
When I look at this photo of The Tybee Island Pier in Savannah, GA I can’t help to be reminded of all the adventure that life has to offer. Since given a second chance at life it is no secret that I live to love an adventurous life. You either need to find it in your heart to seek your next adventure or you have nothing to look forward to. Shouldn’t we love the life we live with all our heart and soul and make it the best adventure of our lives? Yes, we all need to take our desire and passion we have for adventure and go out there and make it happen. I’m a big dreamer and determined to make my dreams my biggest adventures.
My dreams and passions are shared with the people in my life that believe in my dreams. Will forever and always hold onto my dreams and follow my heart to love the life I live. Our time on this earth is limited and we shouldn’t waste it living a life we don’t love with all our heart and soul. When you can’t go a day without thinking about someone or something you need to hold on tight to the dreams and truly make them your adventurous life you wanna live to love.
If someone or something hasn’t put a ravishing smile on your face today than your life wasn’t adventurous enough today. So you know what that means don’t you? When you go to bed or just sitting there with your quiet thoughts dream up your next adventure and make every adventure even better than the last till you also love the life you live.
There is no drug that any Dr is going to ever be able to prescribe to me again that compares to the all natural feeling of another human being. Now if I can only explain this in words that will make since to all of you who are reading this than it just might make for a good story. My strongest drug that I would love to be able to prescribe to everyone that needs it would be the presence of another human being. Oh I know as in every drug prescribed that this isn’t the drug meant for everyone, but for me it is everything. If only everyone could feel the same effect as I do when I get this rush through my veins the world would be a much healthier place to live. It can’t possibly be a bad thing when you are addicted to the feeling that naturally makes you feel good in every possible way. When someone can seduce your mind, take control of your body, and lock that natural drug into your soul you’ll know you have the best drug on the market and you won’t want to ever know if there is anything better to be offered.
There really is a different strength and dose that comes with all kinds of humans in our lives when we receive love and hugs from our children, siblings, family, friends, & even care givers. Most all of my loved ones and people I connect with can bring out the best of me. However, if you are as lucky as me there is that rare gem in your life that you can bet you will be more than addicted to and just can’t get enough of. Somehow that one human being is magically capable of taking all the pain away and making you feel so alive. Who wouldn’t want a fix like that day in and day out???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hzBCI13rJmA This video is just one more thing that validates for me that it is ok that I’ve failed at so many things in my life. It also leads me to believe that it is ok to keep moving forward with every step from getting up, brushing yourself off, to moving forward everyday. Taking the risk in your life until you succeed at finding your place in this world. I’ve made the mistake to many times already in my life to take the easy path, because I felt that was what was expected of me. My life today allows me to have an open life, mind, and heart to truly live life to the fullest. It has always been me to give my full attention to whatever it is that I’m doing or whoever it is that I’m sharing my time with at the moment. Is it true that where ever I am in the moment is exactly where I am meant to be and that everything happens for a reason? I’m very sorry to say that I can’t answer that anymore than the next person can, but I do know that it is the risk I will take with every moment I live this day forward.
This particular Pisces woman has a lot of beautiful qualities about her that she isn’t afraid to share. Not only can she be seductive, passionate, & caring, but she captures everything around her that is of interest to her and files it away in her heart & soul. She’s very generous and mostly sweet. However, when she is upset about something which isn’t very often she only ever sees what is wrong with everything and everyone around her. One moment she can be the happiest person in the world with her closest friends and family and in the blink of an eye everything could change and she just wants to curl up in her own little shy world especially in larger groups. One of those women who are forever and always on an emotional roller coaster, because she is so very fragile, vulnerable, and sensitive to all of her surroundings. There is no doubt in my mind that she must be hard to deal with at times, because of how strongly she feels like her life should be. At the same time she is always more than ready, willing and able to share the affection and love that she craves so much. Forever and always will be a free spirit and money tends to be the least of her priorities, but one day there is no doubt that this Pisces woman will turn her dreams and visions into a profit.
Today I make it my priority to listen to what my mind, body, & soul are needing. Very informative meetings with my doctors, pharmacist, and hospitalist helped me to learn and understand what I needed to know to help myself get over many health hurdles. It is forever a struggle to always eat healthy and keep weight off, because I love food and I’m not exactly as active as I used to be. However, I’m striving for a healthy and happy me so I do put in a good fight.
I’ve been given a second chance to enjoy life again. Not only was I in the right place at the right time, but obviously I had a great medical team to know what it took to save my life. I’ll never forget waking up to the terrible feeling of my ribs being crushed and not really knowing what was going on. There was just enough strength in me to tell the Dr that it hurt and I was gone again. When I came through again I felt that terrible pain again and was able to look at him in his eyes, pick up my hand up to place it on his, and tell him to stop that it really hurts. Later when he brought the interns in to my room and introduce himself and his team…I said “I know who you are you were the man crushing my ribs”. He said “How would you know that”? I said “Don’t you remember me pushing your hand off me and asking you to stop, because I was in so much pain”? He said “Yes, Yes I Do and not only was it amazing that you found the strength to do that, but now to find out you remember it also is even more amazing”. The Dr told me he will use that story always in his classes. The other man I will always remember as one of my angels is the Hospitalist that was caring for me when I finally woke up from it all. He was ever so angelic and caring when I finally alert, but scared and confused as to where I was all hooked up like I was and unable to talk…Just wanted to rip out the tubes and jump out of the bed. This man was so beautiful that I didn’t know if I was dead or alive. All he had to do was look me in the eye put his hand on me and said “calm down, your going to be ok, and your family is here with us”. When I seen my sister and my new love standing there talking to me I just shrugged my shoulders, calmed down, and looked back at the angelic man, held his hand even tighter, and listened to him tell me that I just had a massive heart attack and that he wasn’t going to leave me until he could get me stable. I’ll never forget these two men and will forever be thankful for their knowledge and compassion to keep me alive. Please click the link to follow for the health care information on the basics of CPR as it could mean the difference in saving a life.