With the first full week of school coming to an end I’m most definitely already feeling overwhelmed with all kinds of emotion. My baby of four children was enrolled and entered into school last week and once again finding myself feeling an emptiness that is hard to fill. I’m trying very hard to feel the positive thoughts with all the hustle and bustle in my life again. From sun up to sun down the breakfast is made, book and lunch bag is packed, she is dressed, groomed and ready to catch the bus. For the 8 hours she is gone I’m going to have to figure out what my next milestone will be now that she is enjoying hers. When she finally does get home there is homework, dinner, meetings, extra activities, dinner, bath time, story time, and bed time. Yes, this was always my high yet this time I feel like I’m fighting this overwhelming loss of something in my life again as I was blessed to be able to share all five of these years home with this child.
Now it is time for me to look ahead into another adventure as my baby girl moves forward in her life. It did help a bit to take a day for me to get a mini makeover and do my shopping with a clear head. Now that the anxiety of letting her enter into the big world without a whole lot of stress and anxiety from her as I watch her build confidence it makes it all that much easier for me to start concentrating on a plan to rediscover myself and what I will do to fill this void.